The Corolla sped smoothly down the road through the darkness on I-40. The sun had set long ago and my mind was already starting to weaken, ready for a good night’s sleep. I meant to leave town much earlier, but I didn’t want to miss a chance to say goodbye to Jeremy, silly as that may seem. In all reality, I was running so behind all day that I probably couldn’t have left much earlier anyway. I’d had to make a trip to the store for some wheat-free snacks and meals for the road since I can’t be sure of whether I’ll be able to find things to eat out anymore. I’d surely be hungrier than normal after running behind search dogs all weekend long. It seems I ended up with a day filled with errands, phone calls to Utah about some laminate flooring we are thinking of buying, and several clients who needed graphics sent to them on various projects I’m doing, combined with all the other tasks of getting laundry done, readying the house for my absence, getting meals ready for Jeremy to eat, and coordinating my stay with the Goffs. Then, I realized at the last minute that I still needed directions to the house where I’d be staying the next few days. I consulted Google Maps and it looked easy enough, but I printed out directions and two maps just in case I needed them. Better safe than sorry, right? Then, Jeremy got home so I decided to have some dinner and then we went ahead and ordered 500 square feet of flooring for the house. By the time I left town, it was mostly dark and even though I had two great new CD’s to listen to in the car, I knew that after a few hours passed, I would be getting quite tired driving by myself, without even the glimpses of interesting roadside scenery to keep my mind active. At least I could look forward to a nice night’s sleep since I would surely be tired after poor sleep the night before and my late arrival.
I was really looking forward to this training experience. The instructor coming was a highly esteemed dog trainer with lots of experience, including working canines with law enforcement for many years, training hoards of search and rescue dogs (and assisting other trainers), and the years since the September 11 attacks spent training and working bomb dogs for the FSA in airports on the East coast. As far as credentials and recommendations, I hadn’t found anyone better suited for helping me to advance how I teach and work my dog. My mind combed over questions I had and issues I needed help with as mile after mile passed by. I tried to imagine all the things I might learn and how it would help me and Cabela as well as the rest of our training unit on the county’s search and rescue team.
Trying to make good time without driving too fast, I settled at just over 75 miles an hour. I was glad there wasn’t a lot of wind since I am not a fan of the feeling of driving a kite down the road at fast paces (it’s a tradeoff with the Corolla’s light weight and super gas mileage). The road was pretty empty this late at might, so after I passed Fort Smith, I didn’t have to worry much about other cars, which made the driving that much more peaceful, though it likely contributed to my fatigue. I’d now been driving in total solitude for the last 30 minutes, and I was more thankful for that than not. Driving at high speeds in close range of other vehicles always makes me nervous, so anytime I don’t have to feel defensive trying to predict everyone’s next move is a moment of bliss on the road. Having made this voyage before, I knew to break up the drive into small goals to keep it from seeming overwhelming, so Conway was my next goal and I knew it would only be about an hour and a half after that, making it a little better than a halfway point. I passed a roadside sign that indicated Conway was only seven miles now and I decided I’d stop there to stretch my legs and perhaps get a cup of coffee to wake me up if that was possible. I hated driving like this, but at least I wasn’t actually falling asleep, just feeling sleepy and ready for bed.
Then, I saw him. Huge and beautiful, his agouti, sandy-colored coat gleamed in the light from my car to the road in front of me. His eyes were focused on the other side of the road, far ahead of him now. He got in three ground-covering strides, coming up the grassy slope towards the shoulder, before I reached him. I remember thinking how nice and even and steady his coyote lope was. I was almost too mesmerized by him to react before my car slammed into his huge frame. It is amazing how quickly one’s mind can be awakened. I glanced in my mirrors to avoid hitting a car if one had slipped up on me, then I veered suddenly into the left lane of the highway, taking my foot off the accelerator though I’m not sure if I hit the brakes or not. I’m not entirely sure of what all went through my mind at all, though I do remember making decisions and thinking them through as best as can be done in just two seconds’ time, so there was bound to be at least a little logic in it. For whatever reason, it seemed like trying to get him out of my path was the best thing to do at the time. As it turned out, I hit him anyway but instead of hitting him dead center with the front of the car (which would have been bound to do much more damage and possibly strand me on the side of the road in the middle of the night by myself), I hit him with just the right side of the front of the car. The force of the car hitting him felt about like I’d hit a 100 lb. sack of potatoes and then run it over going 65-70 mph (for reasons unknown to me, I do remember glancing at the speedometer at the time of impact to see how fast I was going, as if that was a particularly important thing to know). He surely died instantly or at least as close to that as possible. Since I was so close to Conway and the car was still seemed drivable, I kept on going.
I was surprised at how little I had reacted to the whole thing. I mean, I did have a bit of adrenaline going, though not as much as I expected, and I wasn’t paranoid afterwards about something else jumping out in front of me, which is totally unlike me. I didn’t even grip the steering wheel until my knuckles turned white like I do so often driving down the interstate – another reason to enjoy having the road to myself. In fact, maybe the thing that makes me so nervous about the road is completely related to the other cars. The seven miles to Conway passed slowly though, as I wondered how bad the damage really was. The warning lights on the dashboard all looked normal and the feel of the car was as it always was, gliding effortlessly down the highway. Finally, I topped the road as it came through a shallow gorge the hills into the city and I turned down the exit ramp. I turned right and headed down the main strip towards the west and headed to the Wal-Mart parking lot. It seemed a nice place to pull over and inspect my car since several of the gas stations looked pretty vacant at this hour. I pulled into a spot and got out of the car to take a turn about it. I was amazed to find just that the bumper was a little cracked and a plastic piece was missing, as well as a huge dent just behind the wheel, between it and the door panel. I think I expected the whole front end of the car to be dented and bashed in with what I felt inside the vehicle. I did manage a mere glancing blow, so I knew I ended up lucky that I was able to swerve and keep from hitting him head-on. The coyote really was massive and I started to wonder if maybe I was mistaken and it was a German Shepherd or something instead. I estimated from my memory of his size that he would have been about 27” or more at the shoulder (Cabela is about 24” and I know he seemed taller than her). But that free, wild look about him was the one thing I was sure of. And I was certain he didn’t have a collar. Maybe the wolf really isn’t gone from Arkansas after all. Or, maybe coyotes end up extra large when they have no competitors or predators to keep them in check. Yes, I was quite sure of what he looked like, if I was sure of anything that night. It was the clearest memory I’d had in a long time, filled with tiny details so that I could paint a picture of it from memory. He had managed to capture one hundred percent of my focus in those last two seconds of his life and I thought to myself that was definitely not a bad way to go. He was the biggest coyote I’ve ever seen, his golden fur, shiny and full, ears pointed straight ahead to the other side of the highway, his bright eyes as steady and sure as his pace. Loping along gracefully with a spectator to remember for all time how glorious he looked in his last seconds in life. And then it all went black.


